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LifestreamIt is my birthday today, or so they tell me. Another year has come to pass. And I’m so very bored with it. More than usual, even.
Procrastination (despair.com)
“Hard work often pays off after time ..
.. but laziness always pays off now”
Life, it seems, has become but a road show for me to enjoy. The years pass ever so quickly before my eyes, and it is as if time keeps accelerating still. Even though I don’t really ACCOMPLISH anything. Do I burn out or do I fade away? Life is, in essence, not more complicated than that, but even answers to such basic questions elude me.
I’m trying to suppress the very notion of age. But everything and everyone keep reminding me. Constantly. Relentlessly.
It’s absurd to celebrate one’s mortality. And as such the defeat of the organism. All of you hopeless romantics can just stuff it. Start living in the real world and stop pestering me.
And so I leave you with the same not so insightful lyrics tidbit as last year …
(”Stranger in a Strange Land”. Adrian Smith, Iron Maiden)
This is what I’m reduced to, quoting / interpreting Heavy Metal lyrics and seeing purpose where there is none. For some reason this song holds some sort of value to me. It could be part of the soundtrack of my demise.
“It’s absurd to celebrate one’s mortality. And as such the defeat of the organism. All of you hopeless romantics can just stuff it. Start living in the real world and stop pestering me.”
This is called ‘wallowing in self pity’
What a waste. Get over it! Nobody cares.
Do something. Join the army (peace corps, band, Marine Corps, or something else).
From my point of view it’s called “coming to terms with the truth that most people would do anything to hide from and continue to do so all their lives”. From a biological perspective it is obvious that all organisms desire to live. Even if “desire” doesn’t mean that they/we are aware of it. Few people are comfortable with the matter. Hence all the balloons and birthday candles if you ask me. But that too is pretty obvious I guess. It all comes down to a basic choice of philosophy.
The army? What army? The US army? Because this is Sweden you know. We are downsizing, finally. It’s too costly to train troops and maintain equipment, especially with “conscription” and all.
Also. I have a problem with authority. I’m one of those people who are in danger of fragging the CO. It’s all in my psy-profile I am sure.
Happy birthday.